December 5th, 2003
the girls in my life...
last nigh i accidentally opened the folder where i place all letters and stuff given to me by my friends and ex-girlfriends....
i made me wonder... what-ifs were all over my head... i tried to remember them... from my very first....
"G". she has been gone for five years now. may god rest her soul. we were together for almost a couple of years (my longest so far...) before she left this world. we were young then... grade five i guess... consider it a puppy love... we had many "firsts"... (except the sex thing...)
"D". she left me good memories... bottom line, she left me because she had to go with her parents... we were young then... second year... puppy love--next level....
"J". i personally consider her my first love.... i mean, i was a junior then so at least the feelings are more intense... we were exact opposites then... the not so good thing about us then was this f***ing friend who say this-and-that trying to destroy us... we were so afraid to show our feelings... (at least for me... ) she broke up with me not even knowing that i have plans i intend to do in order to spice up the relationship... but when that letter came, i was shattered... i took me four months to recover... i was too proud to give my reply....
many questions kept hanging... we were off and god knows how much regret i felt... (up until today..) "first" love--guess so...
they told me... first loves are never gone... they are forever... hmmm... i don't know...
"J"... she was just a friend... maybe due to vunerability, i fell for her... but after sometime, i realized that we are not really meant to be together so we talked about it and called it quits...
"F"... i really wonder why we ended being together... we had our moments... we laughed together... we watched movies... we played PS... we drank a lot... we eat a lot... until we got so used to being together that we thought it became boring... we called it quits... its over... "fling?"... i do not know...
"R"... oh this girl... i told myself she would be my last (at least that's what i thought..) because she seemed to love me that much... i had to break-up with her because i had to leave for the states... she promised me she could wait... so when i came to know that it would take me a minimum of 18 months to process my transfer to that f***ing school... i was really happy because i believed that i had someone to go back to...
hell, i was wrong... i read upon an e-mail that she wrote with these words... "toot-toot (the name of the guy)... me love you!" with her very bold name below it... at this point, i thought not only women should complain about broken promises from us guys... we do too!!!
"K". for whoever's sake... i tried to have it with a younger one this time... my god she was really sweet... she cooks for me... she watches me while i sleep... she usually comes to my place early sunday mornings... that was so....
well, i guess she was too young for me... and her mom disapproves of me so... ok... we called it quits... i never really loved her that much... im afraid to do so...
at present, i am single and happy... glad that i am not in a relationship right now... i have my own time to myself...
J... three of them with significance (the third i never mentioned above)... oh, i guess just two... but right now... i am waiting for one this "J", if ever, come into my life... i won't be able to hold on to being single....
please find me!!!!
"J". "R" for ritch...
"JR"
Just Right... hehehehe...
i made me wonder... what-ifs were all over my head... i tried to remember them... from my very first....
"G". she has been gone for five years now. may god rest her soul. we were together for almost a couple of years (my longest so far...) before she left this world. we were young then... grade five i guess... consider it a puppy love... we had many "firsts"... (except the sex thing...)
"D". she left me good memories... bottom line, she left me because she had to go with her parents... we were young then... second year... puppy love--next level....
"J". i personally consider her my first love.... i mean, i was a junior then so at least the feelings are more intense... we were exact opposites then... the not so good thing about us then was this f***ing friend who say this-and-that trying to destroy us... we were so afraid to show our feelings... (at least for me... ) she broke up with me not even knowing that i have plans i intend to do in order to spice up the relationship... but when that letter came, i was shattered... i took me four months to recover... i was too proud to give my reply....
many questions kept hanging... we were off and god knows how much regret i felt... (up until today..) "first" love--guess so...
they told me... first loves are never gone... they are forever... hmmm... i don't know...
"J"... she was just a friend... maybe due to vunerability, i fell for her... but after sometime, i realized that we are not really meant to be together so we talked about it and called it quits...
"F"... i really wonder why we ended being together... we had our moments... we laughed together... we watched movies... we played PS... we drank a lot... we eat a lot... until we got so used to being together that we thought it became boring... we called it quits... its over... "fling?"... i do not know...
"R"... oh this girl... i told myself she would be my last (at least that's what i thought..) because she seemed to love me that much... i had to break-up with her because i had to leave for the states... she promised me she could wait... so when i came to know that it would take me a minimum of 18 months to process my transfer to that f***ing school... i was really happy because i believed that i had someone to go back to...
hell, i was wrong... i read upon an e-mail that she wrote with these words... "toot-toot (the name of the guy)... me love you!" with her very bold name below it... at this point, i thought not only women should complain about broken promises from us guys... we do too!!!
"K". for whoever's sake... i tried to have it with a younger one this time... my god she was really sweet... she cooks for me... she watches me while i sleep... she usually comes to my place early sunday mornings... that was so....
well, i guess she was too young for me... and her mom disapproves of me so... ok... we called it quits... i never really loved her that much... im afraid to do so...
at present, i am single and happy... glad that i am not in a relationship right now... i have my own time to myself...
J... three of them with significance (the third i never mentioned above)... oh, i guess just two... but right now... i am waiting for one this "J", if ever, come into my life... i won't be able to hold on to being single....
please find me!!!!
"J". "R" for ritch...
"JR"
Just Right... hehehehe...
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