INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

today's discussion was ok...

first period...

i was late...

our topic was on ecosystems....

about species... endangered and extinct...

the word extinct brought out the topic on the dodo bird...

we were saying what if it were alive...

neesh asked me where she saw that in a cartoon....

i told her i do not know...

then out of the blue... my teacher was getting mad...

shit...

she said that we are too noisy...

she can't stick to her resolution...

she sat down... and told us that how would she like us if we are noisy....

then she said... let us settle this once and for...

let us start with you ritcher...
fuck... of all people who were talking... why me????

neesh, what can you say... do you want to discuss infront...
neesh told me to tell her about the dodo bird...

what?!!!!! tell her about the dodo bird... she might think otherwise...

she called on the others...

then she gave us an activity... to "simmer her down" daw...

damn that dodo bird... i got a dose of "breakfast" from my teacher who has imaginary friends... someone like john nash of A beautiful mind...

harharharharhar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to hell with her... i am a student and i am here to learn... i go to school because i want to answer the questions i have been asking myself... and not the teacher's question...

this week is kinda rough on me...

monday... i got "breakfast sermon" on the first period...

watched "utopia" with jenn... i swear this play is not so utopia-like... flaws are here and there... well, its just a high school play... but hey, a ticket costs a hundred...

tuesday... i have an interview with the student council president... 9:30... but as it turned out , we started at around 10 coz he has to attend a meeting... then the interview lasted for almost an hour...

.... i have a quiz in my next two consecutive period....


wednesday... submission of anaphysio project...
... anaphysio lab quiz

thurs... quiz on physics lab....

friday... exams on physics lab...

waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i rode the jeepney to school today... just like any other ordinary day...

but then, i sat next to teo may five-year olds... they were so makulit... i just observed them... i told myself that once i was like them... makulit...

then... i read the notes i have at hand...

suddenly... i heard them say:

"one plus one, magellan
two plus two, lapu-lapu
three plus three, christmas tree,
four plus four, bagong bapor
five plus five, voltes five...."

they paused... they forgot the next line...

they repeated it.... but revised it in a way...

"one plus one, magellan
two plus two, lapu-lapu
three plus three, christmas tree,
four plus four, equals eight...

at doblehin ang eight....
tayo'y mag-otso-otso...."

there they go... this little children singing to that song...
they tried to dance to it in their seats....

i just smiled to myself...

life seems so light for them...

i miss those days...

i talked with her yesterday... ym...

she said it is just ok... though as she said it "ouch..."

but at least we are okay...

her man texted me last night... he said that he wanna talk to me sometime about i-za...

i said sure... and apologized...

he said:" it doesn't matter at least we know where we stand in her life."

i told him... to take care of her.... and tell her i am sorry...

he said: " you made her cry.... i never saw her cry over another man... not even me.."

i replied: "maybe she cried because she realized her mistake... but for whatever reason... let us leave them behind... it is over... its done... what is can done can not be undone..."

he said: "i know...."

---end of conversation---

wow... i feel light.... parang nabunutan ng tinik....

as i promised... tinanggal ko na po yung post....

good luck sa inyong dalawa....
take care of each other...

all my life....

since i was born....

i was ordered to listen and follow orders....

now....

after 18 years of merely existing....

i may now have the chance to state my ideas... my thoughts

i have nothing to say in particular at this point...

i am at a lost of words...

maybe, those words are devoid of their meaning...

making them less true and sincere...

maybe this is not yet my time to talk... speak my mind....

but i hope in time...

and when my time comes... and everybody will listen...

I WILL HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY....

You come from Heaven. You're the purest of pure, a
saint. You're probably an angel sent directly
from Heaven.


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that was the question of my instructor in philosophy....

he looked at me... one of the instructor-look that would tell you that you are in the "hot-seat"...

not knowing to what and how to answer... i just bowed my head... and at the back of my mind... why do i have friends????

he called me to recite...

i stood up... still not knowing what to say...

he stated the question... why do you have friends?... bakit ka may kaibigan???

i stared at him... then look up the ceiling... think.... think... think...

then i blurted it out... "bakit nga ba?"

he said... yes, why do you have friends...

then i wanted to sit... so i finally said... i have friends because of their company...

that was the simplest question i have heard... but the hell... i do not have a precise answer... that one minute of standing... not knowing what to say.. seems to be so long...

then the answers written on the board... answers of the class... including mine...

"help. company. shoulder to cry on. etcetera....etcetera...."

then he said you are voilent men and women....

what???!!!!! i said to myself...

he continued... yes... you are violent... why??... because, you see, if these are your answers to the question, would friends be so boring if i would read these words... and here.... you have friends because you are thinking of your self....

ok... so he is now making sense... so.... then i nodded in agreement...

he continued.... "YOU HAVE FRIENDS BECAUSE... YOU NEED HELP.... YOU NEED COMPANY... YOU NEED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON..." it is all for your sake... your personal interests....

those words sank slowly.... then i lost track of what he was saying... i was busy reflecting on what i heard...

so am i really selfish?
i reflected on much i used the word "I"...
what if i forget the one single "I" and think of all the other "I's"... my friends for example..

question after question... but no lined up answers at the back of my head...

but i think i have to disagree and agree...

now my friends in tabulas....

i ask you one simple question:

"WHY DO YOU HAVE FRIENDS?"

i am bored....

good thing i have this digicam that i borrowed from my cousin...

harharharharharhar!!!!!!!

i do not want to study....

my mind is not yet condition to:

"Lf-Lo=Lo(coeficient of metal)(Tf-To)... blahblahblah..."

so i took the liberty of taking pictures...

no films needed.... no developing.... instant!

i decided to take the pictures of my precious collection and my freedom wall....

1. my FHM Philippines collection...
(hindi na siya magkasya sa iisang frame sa dami...)

2. my cd collection....
( i'm proud that there is no pirated disc in my rack... my way of helping the philippine music industry...)

3. my DVD and VCD collection...
(if there is one thing i really love besides myself...harharhar... that would be movies... again no pirated discs in my shelf...)

4. my MOVIE POSTER collection...
(i am a movie freak... in a good way... my wall is full of posters... i have too much posters that they do not have a wall to cling on to...)


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sex... nakupo... yan po ang isa sa mga pinakapaborito usapin ng bayan... syempre ang number one na gusto ko eh pulitika... hahahahaha... pero mas kaunti ang kausap ko kapag tungkol politics... ang lungkot isipin na kakaunti lang ang mga taong bukas ang isip na nakakausap ko tungkol sa pilipinas, gobyerno, trapo at iba pa...

ngunit kapag sex ang pinag-uusapan... pucha... ang dami... mapa-babae, lalake, mas bata, mas matanda, kaibigan, kaklase at kung sinu-sino pa na mahilig sa usaping ito...

madalas, may kausap ka... dalawa lang kayo... pinagkwekwentuhan yung napanood mo na rated r na kung san nagpakita ng dibdib o hiyas si starlet.... tapos may makikisawsaw.... isa... tapos dalawa... tatlo... hanggang isang grupo na kayo...

mula sa first time mong makatikim ng luto ng diyos hanggang kay "mary palmer"... sa mga pantasya mong bed partner at ang mga naging bed partner mo... sa mga tagtuyot at tag-ulan ng sex life... halos lahat ng tungkol sa sex... ok... patok...

kaya tulad ng sinabi ni bob ong sa kanyang aklat na "PABORITONG AKLAT NI HUDAS" na mahilig sa usaping sex ang pinoy... sa chapter na "SLUT"... na kapag inayos mo ay isa sa mga seven capital sins... ano alam niyo ba kung ano yun?

pero sa napakarami kong nakausap tungkol sa usapong sex... eh iilan lang ang mga talagang may sense... hindi puro libog... yung mga taong tinuturing na isang art... passion...

kaya hindi na ako magtataka kung bakit andaming musmos sa lansangan... at kung bakit young population ang meron ang pinas....
kasi...

BASTA SEX O TAWAG NG LAMAN EH MABILIS PA SA ALAS-KWATRO ANG MGA PINOY...

sana sa lahat ng bagay eh ganito ang "gana" ng pinoy...

kapag nangyari yun....

"THIS COUNTRY WILL BE GREAT AGAIN"

and the gates are open...
the race is on!

yan... ganyan ang ating pulitikos... parang mga karerista na pinagpupustahan ng taumbayan....

umpisa na nga mga kamahalan ng karera papuntang malakanyang! pagdating ko kanina sa town... kawawa na ang isang waiting shed dahil dinikitan ng posters ni lito lapid... ayan hindi ko na siya iboboto... kasi hindi siya marunong sumunod sa posting area ng comelec... at sino sa tingin ng mga lokong pulitiko na magtatanggal niyang mga nakadikit sa mga pader na mukha nila pagkatapos ng eleksyon... marumi na ang baguio... wag nang dagdagan pa ng mga mukha mga taong ngiting aso...

sa lane 1: si gloria... gma kung tawagin... ewan ko pero para sa akin... sa akin lang naman... siya ay isang defacto president... ahahahaha... hindi naman siya constitutional president eh... bakit ka niyo? may apat na basehan kung bakit matatanggal ang isang presidente..

1. namatay
2. nag-resign ( di naman nagresign di erap ah.. )
3. baldado (hindi naman baldado si erap ah... sa ulo diguro harharhar)
4. na-impeach (tanong: natapos ba ang impeachment????)

hindi sa ipinagtatanggol ko si erap... ayaw ko rin sa kanya... pero mas ayaw ko kay gloria...

sayang ang impeachment... proud pa ako noon... wow!!! first time...
gusto ko ng impeachment case na matuloy kasi gusto ko makita kung paano i-handle ng mga pilipino ito.. pero nampucha naman... hindi natapos... kasi nag-walk-out ang mga senador...

kung talagang mahuhusay ang mga mahistrado noon... lalo na si davide... dapat kinasuhan niya ng contempt of court ang mga nag-walk out at hindi sumipot sa hearing... kung rule of law ang paiiralin dapat rule of law... sana natapos ang impeachment di sana tinanggap ko si gloria as legal na president...

kaya nga idol ko si paguia eh... abogado ni erap... kasi may prinsipyo... kahit lisensya niya bilang abogado eh isusugal niya... kasi may point naman yung ipinaglalaban niya...

si gloria... yan ang "incumbent" na pangulo.... baka mas bagay.... panggulo ng pilipinas.... tatakbong mulii...

isa pa lang yan... may ilan pang susunod...

hehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

salamat at wala kaming exam bukas... harharharhar!!!!!!!!


enjoy ako bukas sa panonood at tulog...

one last to go sa friday... 5pm class....


wooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooo!!!!

ang pilipinas... kawawa naman puro na lang cell site... umaasa sa mga telephone companies... tapos siyempre kung wala tayong cell site walang signal... kawawang pilipinas... nagbabayad ang gobyerno para sa mga ito... bakit? eh pwede naman na wala na tayong bayaran at sa lahat ng lugar ng bansa eh mayroon tayong signa...

sa paanong paraan... sa pamamagitan ng satellite... opo... satellite... kung inyong maalala eh hindi pumayag ang gobyerno o at least hindi pa pumapayag ang gobyerno na maglaunch o maki-tap man lang sa mga satellites... kasi mahal daw... pero kung tutuusin hindi naman... kasi kung puro tayo cell sites eh di puro expenses tayo... pero kung nagsatellite tayo eh hindi na natin babayaran ang mga companyang yan... at multipurpose pa ang satellite...

sabi nga ng guro ko... ayon sa kanyang nabasa... sa simpleng reply na "k"... ay umaabot na ng 25 million pesos ang kita ng isang companya na tulad ng smart... globe... at suncell... at tignan niyo... binabayaran pa sila ng gobyerno... tsk..tsk...tsk... wawa...

sino ang mas yumayaman ngayon... gobyerno?

sana matauhan ang mga taong nasa kinauukulan... na in the long run eh mas mura ang satellite... kasi may lalabas na pera pero may babalik din... hindi tulad ng cell site na puro labas ng pera...

sa tingin niyo???

i will spending the whole day with her...

yes, after quite sometime...
we are going out together again...
well its valentine's day...

after 5 years of having someone to celebrate valentine's with...
i am alone again...
alone... but not necessarily lonely...

she is pretty...
she is sweet... at times....
she is a friend...
she is a fighter...
she is strong...
she is (sometimes) crazy...
she is (sometimes) wild...
she is (sometimes) unpredictable...

sometimes we get along too well...
sometimes we just don't...
sometimes we have common interest...
sometimes we express our individuality...
sometimes we share same views...
sometimes our views contrast...

but no matter what...
i really love this girl...
no...
this young lady...

my beloved sister... LOVELY!

i went out with my sister to watch the movie "Milan"...

namputcha.... puno ang mga sinehan... box-office nanaman ang pelikula ng star cinema...

star cinema siguro ang may pinakamaraming pelikulang ginawa na nagustuhan ko... kasi hindi lang dahil sa kaya nilang gumawa ng de kalidad na pelikula sa kahit anong genre... drama, komedi, musical, at kung anu-ano pa...

siguro ang pinkamemorable films na gawa nila ay "anak, madrasta, tanging yaman, tanging ina, may minamahal, dekada'70, bagong buwan, kailangan kita, kung ako na lang sana at tanging ina"

isa na naman blockbuster para sa star cinema ang milan. well crafted na naman... kaiba naman ang trip nila ngayon... buhay ng mga ofw na hindi pinapakita sa ibang films... sa mga struggles nina lino at jen... para sa akin, nabigyan nila ng justice yung characters nila... at yun bang tipong iisipin mong... "oo nga. pwedeng mangyari."

hindi kasing ganda ng inaasahan ko ang milan pero pwede na rin... kasi napatawa nila ako sa isang scene na dapat ay malungkot ako... at yung lovescene nila... inakupo... parang sa kailangan kita nina claudine at aga... pero in general ok naman ang milan...

ang pinakapaborito na linya... (hindi ko alam kung saan ko napanood na ginamit na itong linyang ito... hindi ako sigurado...)

"mahal mo ba ako dahil kailangan mo ako... kailangan mo ako dahil mahal mo ako..."

what friends meant to me...

i reflected... well, i could name my truest friend ... the one who stick with me through thick and thin... and of course, they could expect the same thing from me...

how could i differentiate my friends from my acquaintances.....

simple... they can go come and go as they please.... kaya nga tinawag na acquaintance... pero kapag nararamdaman ko na pinapahalagahan ako... kaya kong suklian ito...

hindi ako mahirap i-please... madali akong makasundo sa mga may gusto... sa mga ayaw... ewan ko sa inyo...

basta sa mga kaibigan ko salamat... sa mga nagdaan... at sa mga darating pa... isa lang ang tatandaan niyo...

si ritch eh nandito lang sa tabi-tabi... at mahal ko kayong lahat... at kaya kong gawin halos lahat for a friend...

thank you guys...

love lots and i remain,
ritch

woohoooo!

i am so happy today...

why?

1. because i solved my physics quiz... i have this feeling that i got 3 out of the five problems....

2. i know who that "violet" is... Violet: sorry, i never thought you would midread the signs....

3. i am excited to partying this weeken with my cousins, my sister and a few friends.... i am looking forward for friday night and saturday night...

4. i got the highest score in our religion exam... i never expected it hough....

5. i am glad that i have "her" as my inspiration... thank you... mwwaahhh!!!!

6. i am glad that i am alive....

7... i really love being the person that i am now... i really am feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you, my bestfriend "up-there"... you never let go of me... praises to you my God.

ang kwentong ito ay nakuha ko mula sa aking guro a philo3. ako na lang ang nagbigay ng titulong "may isang starfish."

minsan ay may mag-amang naglalakad sa may tabing dagat. nakikita ng mag-ama mula sa kanilang kinatatayuan ang kahabaan ng tabing dagat na punumpuno ng starfish.

patuloy silang naglakad.

isa-isang pinulot ng anak ang mga starfish at ibinabato sa dagat na dapat nilang kalagyan. napuna ito ng ama ant tinanong ang anak: "ANO ANG GINAGAWA MO?"

"IBINABALIK KO LANG PO ANG MGA STARFISH SA DAGAT BAGO SILA MATUYO NG ARAW," ang simpleng tugon ng anak.

"sa dami ng starfish dito sa tabing dagat..... sa tingin mo anak ay may ibig sabihin ang iyong ginagawa para sa mundo... sa tingin mo magdudulot ito ng pagbabago sa buhay ng tao?"

nagpatuloy ang anak sa ginagawa. hindi agad sinagot ng anak ang tanong ng ama.

ngumiti ito. hinarap ang ama. tinignan ito ng diretso sa mata at nagwika :

" wala mang halaga ang aking ginagawa sa paningin ng mundo...

pero...

kahit papaano...

gusto kong maipakita ang halaga ng mundo para sa starfish."

at saka niya ibinato ang starfish sa dagat....

boo!----rained on the street dancing parade

hooray!---the participants decided to continue with the parade

boo!---panagbenga has been a "political" thing for the candidates... to name a few : ROCO!, jaworski... bong... barbers... mar roxas... santiago... pia cayetano... biazon... gordon... etcetera

hooray!---abs-cbn had a live telecast on tv... regional netwrok group...

boo!---andaming tao... andaming mandurukot... bwisit!

hooray!---the market encounter was good....

boo!---nakipagsiksikan pa sa sked ng panagbenga ang eat bulaga... tuloy ang sikip-sikip sa market encounter...

hooray!---nakita ko rin pala yung 2 sa finalists ng star in a million... sina czarina rosales... she is really tal and pretty... the voice????... ok? and dk tijam... short guy... mas maliit pa sa akin... pero ok ang boses... number one nga yung song niya na till my heartaches end sa mor northern luzon... ewan ko ba kung bakit...

boo!----*put*** nang trapik!!!! bwisit!!!!!!!!!!!!! trapik ng tao at sasakyan... sh**!

today... feb 23... is our first day on malvar... community duty... ihave complete paraphernalias... and complete set of classmates...

the first housze was the santiago's... they were very kind... they were really jolly people... there are 15 members of the family... 4 comfortrooms... 14 dogs... and ten bedrooms... 1 car... and they are all migrating to the us... cool...

the next house... #26 and #27 were pain in the neck... they were so snob... they said: "wala akong kinalaman sa mga ganyan ganyan..." and the other said: (take note:SHOUTED!) "tapos na kami diyan.pwede wag na kami..."

and the last house... she was really kind... she has three kids... and borders... she entertained us even though she just woke up... istorbo in short....

the bad thing is it rained... cats and dogs... and right now... my pants are wet... so is my jacket...

it has been a good day... and i'm gonna call it a day coz tomorrow will be my next exciting day: "THE PROSTITUTE PROJECT!"

AND ONE THING MORE... nakakinis itong aking katabi... si ritze... naku ewan ko ba... hinihiram niya itong aking digicam... sabi ko oo pero hindi si mag-eerase at ipapakita niya sa akin... sabi niya oo... pero yung gusto lang daw niya... fair? i don't think so... sorry ritze... next time...

madamot daw o?

February is over but I have learned much from those 28 past days of February…

1. that the show must go on… whatever happens… it is the willingness to do it…and the willingness to shoulder the consequence of our actions… time is gold… what is schedule for today is not scheduled for tomorrow for tomorrow awaits new tasks to be accomplished… the street dancing in the rain taught me all these…

2. to do things for yourself because it makes you happy… and it makes you feel good about yourself…

3. that I can be a hero to someone even just for a day… in the small things that I could have done in the past, I finally have done it… I volunteered to join the outreach without thinking of any reward… I entered the world of the special children in the span of three hours… no qualms whatsoever… I feel that I have found what would make me happy for the rest of my life… serving people… today, I felt like floating after tending to those kids and see the smile on their faces…its all worth the effort…

4. that prostitution is not just a cliché… it is a reality that can be viewed in different ways… I got the pleasure of interview three prostitutes… and I can see in their eyes that they are one of the truest persons I have talked to… they changed my views of their job… they have gained the respect that is due them… respect that is much higher than most professionals… life has been hard on these people… but they chose to be strong not just for themselves but also for their immediate family… tibay ng loob sabi nga nila… and the one thing that I cannot forget that “#3” told me was: “ito ang trabahong madaling pasukan, mahirap labasan….”

5. in relation to 4—life after dark in baguio has changed… burnham park has been turned into another “quezon city circle”… prostis and callboys are all around… and in the viewdeck, “oral service” has been served before my very eyes when I unintentionally decided to go to the viewdeck… the very bright lights of the view deck… in the very visible corner of the viewdeck… those couple were making out.. is burnham park the next “susuhan” park?