INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

raging_ritch

the news came to on that fateful day

i never knew how to react at first

but as the minutes turn to hours

and the hours turn to days

i realized one thing

she was gone

as the idea sink inside the depths of my sanity

i could only rationalize in order to put up a gameface

to cover the pain that incident caused me

all i could do was shrug it off as if nothing happened

must have been good of an actor

no evident traces

no tears

no sadness

its more than just a injured ego

its a broken heart  

trying to mend

in the still of the night

raging_ritch

sa tinagal tagal ko sa tabulas,

sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, ako ay gagamit ng kulay na maliwanag... hindi ko iniiwan ang aking unang mga kulay--itim at pula... ngunit sa buhay, minsan, kailangan ng bagong anyo... kahit paunti-unti...

may mga nangyari sa buhay ko nang nagdaang mga linggo na nagpabago ng aking perspectives sa buhay...

at sa darating na mga araw, isang bagong blog na ang uusbong...

ang throne of blood ay akin na munang isasantabi...

marahil sa isang linggo ay uusbong bagong lunduyan ng isang taong binago ng panahon at pagkakataon...

salamat sa inyo, mga kaibigan ko: mary khristine, vance christian, camille, rhea lynn, louise, marianne, michelle at joanne...

sa aking waring kawalan, ako ay nagkaroon... mas madami pa kesa sa nawala...

salamat!!!!

raging_ritch

i never came close to death...

not as close as....

nothing as sweet..

nothing as intimate...

nothing can compare to

this...

.....

kiss...

raging_ritch

sabi nila, kapag nawalan ka, makakahanap ka...

tama... dahil sa puntong ito, nagpapasalamat ako dahil namulat na ako...

nagising sa matagal na pagkakahimlay...

nasaktan ako? oo, inaamin ko subalit ang lahat ay may kapalit...

mas maraming kaibigan...

mas maraming masayang panahon kasama nila...

nawalan ako ng isa, umani ako ng 6 na bagong kaibigan...

sa kanila naging mas magaan ang pagtanggap ng katotohanan wala na sa aking kamay ang sitwasyon... 

sabi nga ni mitch sa akin, " hindi ka tanga. marunong ka lang magmahal ng mga taong tanga! wag mo nang gawing tanga ang sarili mo. once ka nang naging tanga, wag ka nang tumulad sa akin na isa pa ring tanga hangang ngayon..." 

sabi nga ni joane, " parekoy, wala naman siya sa mga naging ex mo. she's not worth it... pasensya ka na, prangkahan lang, alam ko naman na mahal mo pa rin hanggang ngayon... magising ka na... andami mong binalewala, sila naman ang pagtuunan mo ng pansin..."  

sa makailang beses akong hindi nakinig sa inyo, pasensya...

marahil, ngayon, its time to listen to those who really care... thanks guys...  

raging_ritch

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

raging_ritch

today is my off from school... i do not have any class on every thursday.nice... rest day...

after watching net 25's liwanagin natin... i surfed channels... i reached this channel with RAI international on the side of the screen... whew... it was in italian...

the show was, miss italia nel mondo... and then what struck me was the color of the ladies dresses, they were actually their corresponding country's flag... then i recognized the blue, red, white,sun and stars... THE PHILIPPINE FLAG!!!!

her name was MARA MORELLI a filipina or at least she is part filipina... even if i could only understand a few lines, i was glued to the tube... she even danced the pandangosa ilaw---she removed her nice shoes and danced barefoot... she is really graceful... and then she won it...

i told myself,she reminds me of someone... then came the name: MARIANNE...

(CLOCKWISE: my friend marianne on the phone, then a selfpic...and then the look alike... partida,natural look pa lang yan ni marianne... walang make-up... hehehehe...)

PS... thanks marianne...wag ka magagalit sa pagnakaw ko ng picture mo ha... heheh...peace!!!