INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

raging_ritch

this entry may be my craziest entry cause im running on hing and low emotions right now... i am not really happy yet i am not really sad... yet i dont find myself in between either...

say, it has been a chronic... long term... whatever... i have been longing for something that it makes me bleed when i am craving... but then again, i would be the guilt ridden fool to be even craving...

i never brought it upon myself... it just...booom!!!  and there it is... at first it was easily brushed off... set aside... but hey, it is as if i am caught in a fire... its gonna eat me alive... so somehow i am half dead... walking endlessy.... searching for answers...

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i am happy... why... cause finally, there is a direction for our batch who took the board exams... let just do this so we can move on with our lives....

 i have now ventured in a very new experience... i mean, this experience is so new that i am enjoying it right now... i mean, it improves me as a person.. an individual...

i have just proven to myself that i am so much more than what i am... i have three new great friends... and we were together for like 40 hours a week... and yet we still lookforward for the next meeting....

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i dont know how to put an end to this unrelated nonsense i wrote today... so i might just end it with a: "goodbye and thank you... have a nice day..."