INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

raging_ritch

i saw her again today. she looked

so beautiful as she stood a few

meters before me. the few meters

seem miles separating us. minute by

minute the distance grows wider.

she was drifting until she was out

of reach.

she looked over her shoulder and i

saw the traces of sadness in her

eyes as. her smiles easily fade and i

cannot seem to determine where the

sadness is coming from.

i sat there silently while flashing in

my head her happy images. i could

hear her laughter playing by

memory. everything i know of her is

in her previous life.

today everything has changed. the

wall has been set. the limits are set

definite. she is now fenced in with

no way out. indeed, she will have to

work hard to maintain her new

status quo.

i watched as everything takes place

in front of my very eyes. i am of no

position to judge for that would be

unfair. her new life is just starting.

my only wish for her is that she

finds true happiness in her new

chosen life.

TODAY, she said "I DO".

.... to that man in front of her.

raging_ritch

i was okay being single... until suddenly something struck me... everyone i know is in a relationship and at this point do i have to stand out as the single guy... i guess so... 

well, i am still enjoying my single life... cause i have to admit there are no worries to consider... but i also have no one to take care and look after me... someone who i could cuddle with when i am sad and depressed.... someone i could kiss goodnight... someone i could talk with till morning... someone i could stare at while she is sleeping... someone i could call "my girl, my woman and my friend"...

when i was sick for more than a week and no one was there, i felt the downside of being single... the downside that i never had given a tough look...

i dont want to chase love because the more you chase it, the farther it flies... when she comes it would all fall into place... i guess... i believe so...

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friends of my come to me to ask my opinion in regards to matters of the heart...what is ironical though is that i cant even have my own love story to tell at the moment... i mean, yes i did have my share of relationships here and there but every relationship that we get ourselves into is unique on its own... but i am not complaining, i  am more than willing to share my piece of thought to anyone who asks for it.... i even feel grateful because it is as if they are telling me that they trust me... and thanks for the trust...

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lately, i heard this news that someone close to me is "moving closer".... yes, at first i was glad that that someone is becoming within reach but i failed to consider the other persons affected by the "move"...  i felt happy and guilty at the same time....

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