INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

raging_ritch

i came with a warning written all over me.

 you did not take time to notice.

you messed with the wrong person.

don't blame me if you pulled my trigger.

i can assure you, the aim is on you

i will crush you.

i will make sure you are in bits in pieces

begging for mercy

in time i may  forgive you but i never will forget

you forced me into it

now suffer

in my wrathfulness

this will be my sweetest revenge

i made you will never forget who you messed with

no one ever messes with this QUITEVIS.

no one.

ever.

not in this lifetime.

if you do, gear up for the silent killer.

amidst my silence

i am working my way

to bring the biggest damaging blow

i am and will always be

your darkest and worst nightmare

pray that you won't wake up

i prepared misery in a platter for you.

enjoy the pain.

raging_ritch

"I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it"

---rent

i hate to use the word hate because it is such a heavy word. i would prefer that i just learn to love people less... and then little by little they do not matter to me anymore. i don't hate them nor do i love them... they just don't exist...

i think i should learn to put my defenses high. doubt people, but what good will that ever do? i have the tendency to give people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes it pays to trust them but then again, the feeling of betrayal makes you feel stupid when that remaining benefit of the doubt crumbles. like crumbs on a newly shampooed carpet--useless, insignificant and yet very disappointing to your sight and much irritating on your bare skin. 

so like something for lease, people use you and at times you use people. like what they told me, we just use each other, some are just so crude in their ways while others are subtle.

people appear and disappear in front of us... some slowly, some sudden and unannounced... some for a brief enough that you do not notice they came and went... and those who linger,they are the hardest to let go... for some reason... in the end, we just let our paths criss-cross and then we continue on our journey...

starting and ending has parallel meanings. both start at some point where the other cease to exist and can never co-exist, law of impenetrability. 

life and everything else is just like that...

or maybe not.