INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION

raging_ritch

two years ago, i have listed my 100 things i have to do before i die. the ones that i believe are attainable and more likely to be completed before i finally rest 6 feet under.

out of the hundred, i have completed 3 of them...

now i will list, 23 impossible goals. and everytime i have another in mind, it could always be added. basically, my 23 impossible goals will only be the foundations to my impossible dreams.

23. i will be invited to the malacanang to meet and great the president (not the current one) and have some recognition of some sort.

22. i will play a character role in a film, studio or indie

21. i will win a palanca award

20. i will win a pulitzer

19. i will write an award winning screenplay

18. i will be considered an "expert" in any nursing field

17. i will become business tycoon

16. i will be a hotshot lawyer

15. i will perform act in a theatrical production with more than 10,000 people in attendance

14. i will be a "man of the year" for time

13. my name will give with more than 20,000 page results in google/yahoo

12. i will represent the philippines in an international competition

11. i will be published as an international bestseller author

10. i will have dinner with the cast of friends,how i met your mother, grey's anatomy, smallville, kyle xy and entourage

09. i will die at the age of 101.

08. i will co-host with danny wallace

07. i will co-author with marcus zusak

06. i will have a compostion sung by an national artist

05. i will have my face on a postage stamp

04. i will be a part of the winning team of the first filipino film to be nominated and win an oscar for best foreign language film

03. i will have a star in the hollywood walk of fame (hahaha, really impossible)

02. i will be the neighbor of oprah and bill gates. (hahaha, whew, that is why this list is 23 impossible)

01. i will be able to accomplish everything on this list

this list of my impossibles will be not be forever impossible, some of which, if not all will be signed, sealed and delivered. who knows, one day i will look back and more than 75% will have eliminated from this list because i have made them possible. 

like fairy tales, it teaches us more than magic,  we slay dragons and monsters. we beat the crap out of them.

raging_ritch

there are times when i feel that i can do it... i believed i can do it, i know i can do it but then for some reason when i am there i just can't deliver it.

talking about high expectations.... but then again my high expectations brought me to where i am now... so until my next one...

raging_ritch

ewan ko kung ano ang nagtutulak sa akin na magsulat pero sa ngayon eh hanggang sa sking pagtulog eh tumatakbo ang aking mga ideas para sa aking binubuong kwento.

siguro nga ay matagal ko na itong ipinagpaliban at panahon na para harapin itong muli... at ngayon ay tatapusin ko na... pramis...

raging_ritch

galing ako sa trabaho... palabas nang muli si haring araw subalit tinatakpan siya ng makapal ng ulap... gayunpaman, ang dilim ng gabi ay napapalitan na ng liwanag...

pagdating sa aking tinutuluyang apartment, nakaramdam ako ng pangungulila, pag-iisa, lungkot at kung anu-ano pa... hindi ko malaman kung saan ito nagmumula... ayokong alamin...

nagdesisyon akong maglakad-lakad... wala namang patutunguhan pero animo'y may sariling pag-iisip ang aking mga paa... naikot ko na ang aming kanto, ang sumunod na kanto at yung susunod pang kanto at yung sumunod pa roon... siguro pinapagod ko lang sarili ko para makatulog na pag-uwi... pero pag ganito pala kaaga, medyo sariwa pa ang hangin... buti na lang umulan kagabi... malamig.. masarap maglakad...

sa susunod kong lakad, saan kaya ako mapapadpad... sana, malapit ka lang para kahit lakarin ko araw-araw, ayos lang... alam ko kung saan patutungo...